I read through my old blogs, and I was a very angry person. My happy blogs were hardly ever happy and ridiculously pretentious. My sad blogs were borderline suicidal. My angry blogs were full of hatred I really can’t even get myself to imagine now. Maybe it was a teenager thing… Nonetheless, I am really proud of the progress I have made in the past few years. I find myself embracing my own happiness and growing to love myself more and more everyday.
I think it’s important to set standards for yourself. I don’t think one should always settle for the things readily available to them if there are other choices.
With that said, there are many things that one simply have no control over, and I think those are the kinds of situation that often lead to a waste of effort and energy. I don’t think it’s so much of settling for something lower than your standard, rather it’s more of an acceptance to the things you simply cannot change. Playing God will never work unless you are God, of course.
This is something I need to work on. Because of my tendency to be controlling of every situation I find myself in, I have a really difficult time accepting situations I hadn’t created myself.